I haven’t been painting, at all. In fact, I have zero desire to do it. I’m not really sure why, other than maybe there are other things calling me that are more important (for me) than painting right now.
What have I been doing lately? I’ve been writing. Writing and writing and writing. With purpose, stories, things that I’ve been needing to write I think for a very long time. I’ve spent years living, having adventures, fucking up and collecting experiences and maybe now it’s time to write all that shit down. I don’t know. I have a few supporters, they cheer me on, they give me deadlines, they keep me accountable but for the most part what I’ve been writing has been done in super secret. I’m not ready to share any of it quite yet, except with the few people who keep me accountable. That’s all I need right now, so painting…kind of fallen to the wayside.
What else have I been up too?
Training, with kettle bells, in a serious way. Yoga…but it’s getting time that I need to go back to class. I need yoga friends. This is all in an effort to take better care of sensitive me. That was pretty much my WHOLE point of moving back to Omaha. A smaller city, less stress, ease, and the time and resources I needed to take care of Highly Sensitive Me. That is a job in itself.
Speaking of jobs, I got a new one. I’ve been there a little over 2 months now. While it isn’t a dream job by any means, it’s better on my highly sensitive body. I like my co-workers and the job itself is relatively easy which is something I need. The last seven years of my life have been anything BUT easy.
As for this blog,I don’t know what to do with it. It changes too much. I never know what to write about or how much to share. Right now there is nothing painting involved in my life right now. My life is yoga, writing, training and all things related to taking care of my highly sensitive body and self. Maybe I should share that? I don’t know. Being highly sensitive IS my life, I mean…there isn’t any way for me not to be and all the things I do come back to that. Maybe I should write about those things? I’m not sure. I’m always caught between how much to share and what to share exactly, especially in terms of my sensitivity. I also feel this need to help others by sharing about my highly sensitive adventures and self-care. How I operate in a world not really built for me. I don’t know. I’ll have to think on it I guess.
Anyway…we’ll see what happens. Have a great weekend!