Sorry I have not posted in a while. It’s been busy and surprise! I’ve been tired. ZzzZZZzz
I’ve probably mentioned this…but lifting is less about how my body will look and even strength and more about keeping my shit together. The other stuff is a happy side effect.🙂
Last night back at it.
My squat felt so heavy. It was difficult last night. When I did my warm up and the bar felt heavy I knew it was going to be challenging. I told my husband…I might complain but I will get this done! And I did.🙂
So here’s what I did…
Squat 75 lbs 3 x 5
Bench 55 lbs 3 x 5
Deadlift 85 lbs 1 x 5
I felt better afterwards and totally crashed when I went to bed.🙂
In my teens I was a journal enthusiast. I wrote down ALL my teenage angst into notebooks of various assortments. I won’t lie, it got me through a lot of hard things and it gave my unrelenting emotions a place to go. Even into adulthood I continued to write in a journal pretty regularly. It’s when I became MORE of an adult or at least in my 30’s when I kinda stopped doing it.
I don’t know why. I mean, I’m sure there are a bazillion reasons why…mostly involving my crappy relationships, school and life stuff in general. Eventually I stopped writing altogether as there never seemed to be time and well…my brain works much faster than my fingers can write in a notebook. I’d end up with scrawl I couldn’t read.
However, there is something so important about journaling. The way I am able to record what has happened to me. My memory isn’t always the best and the human mind has a tendency to remember things different after a period of time. Writing it down daily serves as a memory bank for me. Shows me what I endured, celebrated and progressed with.
Seeing as how I no longer enjoy writing the old fashioned way (pesky fingers can’t keep up) I wanted to find an alternative. I thought…
There is an app for pretty much EVERYTHING these days so how about a diary?
And yes. THERE IS. *cue music now*
I haven’t purchased the full version yet, still trying it out, but so far I love it. The reason I love it so much is it’s very accessible. My phone is usually always with me so at any moment if I want to write something down, it’s right THERE! And my typing can keep up with my brain. It also allows you to add photos and rate your feeling for the day with a face. It’s cute and convenient. It also has the ability to back up what you have written and you can password protect it.
Anyway, thought I would share that! Hope your long weekend was great!
I am exhausted. Story of my life, a song that is constantly on repeat.
My husband did point out that on days I train, I’m excited and full of energy.
Of course, I have to grow those baby muscles!😀
Anyway, keeping it simple for gains, then stuff will be added later!
Squat: 65 lbs 3 x 5
Bench: 50 lbs 3 x 5 (womp! better than 45 lbs last week!)
Deadlift: 75 lbs 1 x 5
On a happy note, deadlifts yesterday were not as bad today. Sunday I was pretty certain I was hit by a truck.
I’ve started doing a 10 minute mediation every morning and evening. I’ve only been doing it a few days but it has made slight differences in my day and making it easier to fall asleep something that is often very challenging for me.
AND…no anxiety or depression.😀 Three cheers for that!
I’m back to lifting heavy (well, heavy for me! haha!) I’ll be doing this three times a week. My husband has me doing a program that he’s modifying a bit to structure around the weight I can push and pull right now. I’ll be learning some new movements next week, a little excited about that. Mostly though, I’m just fucking ecstatic to be lifting weights!
My past numbers before I stopped.
Bench – 50 lbs 3 x 5🙂 Deadlift – 85 lbs x 5 🙂 Squat – 80 lbs 3×5
Lifting helps me with so many things! Confidence, self-esteem, insecurity, strength, anxiety, depression. The list goes on. I loved how I felt when I lifted. I felt I could handle anything! In my head I would say “Well if I can deadlift almost 95 lbs I can do….<insert thing here>.”
In between I will do yoga for recovery. Apparently my yoga is helping my squat as my husband said “Damn yogi’s, your butt doesn’t tuck under!” This is also known as a butt wink. Yeah…not sure but apparently I have good form so more yoga!!😀
Body: Hey asshole, you didn’t need a week off maybe 2 days.
Me: But I was having my cycle.
Body: So that means a week off and eat ALL the bad food?
Me: Yes it does.
Body: Hrm. *said in Marge Simpson voice when Homer does stupid things*
I did take a week off because of my cycle (which isn’t a lame excuse my body is rendered useless as I hemorrhage from my no no parts.) I ate a lot of sweets I don’t normally eat because cycle makes me CRAVE ALL THE SUGAR and baby Jesus help you if you try and take that away from me, I will CUT YOU. Throw a long weekend with too much to do and seeing too many people and well my body starts yelling “Hey Asshole!” and then quickly reminds me that…
a. Self care IS important for highly sensitive me.
b. Sweets are okay in moderation but will WRECK me if consumed in excess. DUH.
c. There are two days I bleed like I’ve been stabbed repeatedly, after that I’m fine.
d. You know better.
I do. *hangs head*
So here’s what happened since I decided to ignore my self care and highly sensitive needs.
Complete and total exhaustion. Irritability or as my husband likes to call it “Tall Two Year Old Syndrome” where adult Amber behaves like a two year old who needs a nap BADLY.
Muscle pain, joint pain, depression (sometimes anxiety) and an inability to keep my shit together but my personal favorite…
A dull aching pain that started SUNDAY night, leaked into MONDAY and by Monday night was a massive migraine that also carried over into TUESDAY in which case I had to call out sick because my head was pounding and my body basically shut the fuck down. It was game over, you aren’t going anywhere that isn’t the couch.
I think there was a time when I could be carefree and eat whatever the hell I felt like not do any sort of healthy movement and not suffer any consequences.
Yeah, that’s not my life anymore.
My life now is…I have to train/exercise/workout (whatever you’d like to call it) and this has to happen AT MINIMUM 3 times a week.
I can’t eat whatever the hell I want or things like pain or not pooping for a week happens.
My highly sensitive body can barely tolerate working in an office 5 days a week. It doesn’t do well around large groups of people (PEOPLE at all really.) It is completely draining regardless of how fun the group or social event might be. I need at least ONE day a week for rest (usually Sundays.) A blanket fort may be built and horror movies WILL be watched. I come into zero contact with people except for my husband and possibly my dad if he calls. THAT’S IT.
I won’t be going that long again without training maybe a couple while I nearly bleed out. I’ll refer to this post and my 3 day headache to remind me of what I need to do.
So today…back at it…
Mobility work for ankles, knees and hips. Squats, glut bridges and halos – 10 each.
Swings- 3 x 20 – 12 kg
Goblet Squats – 3 x 10 – 12kg
Presses – 3 x 5 – 8kg
Rows – 3 x 5 – 8kg
Get ups – 6 – 8kg
Beach work aka Make ya look pretty – (Curls, Triceps/Calves)
I have a friend who LOVES Disney. He wasn’t so good with WordPress so he asked if I could help him get a layout and what not. Give that a look see if you feel inclined.
It’s been a lazy Sunday and I’ve been sick most of it. Cycle starts next week (sorry TMI) and that pretty much knocks me down entirely so I won’t be training, I’ll be begging for mercy and wishing I didn’t have a uterus.😀